SECOND GUEST BLOG BY UBER TALENTED NY TIMES BESTSELLING AUTHOR DAVID FARLAND The Artistic Mind: Staying Creative through Depression By David (Wolverton) Farland
But treating depression isn’t what this article is
about. It’s about writing through
depression. Here’s a bit of advice
on how to do that:
As a teen suffering from bipolar disorder, I never received
medical treatment. The wisdom of
the time was that you just had to tough it out. Things have changed, and I know several writers who live
with it now, thanks to the proper medications.
Having bipolar disorder is an emotional roller coaster. I recall one day walking down a
street. The sun was shining, the
birds were singing, and I felt so alive that I almost imagined that I could
take flight. A few days later I
was walking down the same street.
The sun was shining, the birds were singing, and I felt so terrible that
I thought, “I wish I had my shotgun.
I’d make those damned noisy birds shut up for good!” That’s when I realized that there was
something wrong with me.
By then I was already writing, so what did I do? I’d be a liar if I said that I ever got
anything done in my down times.
The truth is, I wrote during my up times, and my writing was spotty at
best. It wasn’t until my bipolar
disorder was ebbing away that I began to write earnestly. Yet my advice here stands: take good
advantage of your up times.
When I first began to suffer from seasonal affective
disorder a few years later, I learned that I had to make the most of the good
times. So for a couple of
years—1992 and 1993—a disproportionate amount of my writing got done in the
summer.
But what if you don’t have “up times” with your kind of
depression?
Write anyway.
Tough it out. If you are
trying to write while you’re suffering major depression, make sure to set
reasonable goals for yourself, and then celebrate your wins. Don’t tell yourself, “I’m going to
write 100 pages today!” I’ve never
written that much on even my best day.
Instead, while suffering major depression, I might say, “I’m going to
write a scene.”
I’d find that after I’d written a scene, I usually felt
pretty good for having done it. In
fact, I felt so good that I’d write another, and another. That’s how I’d celebrate—by
writing more.
Interestingly enough, some psychiatrists believe that among
artists, depression may be rooted to a feeling that they aren’t able to
communicate. When you do get some
good work done, then, the work itself may feel like a cure. I find that for me, working regularly,
writing full-time, seems to be a kind of therapy. I don’t just like my job, my body craves it, the way that it
craves exercise.
So know that if you just keep writing, you really can help
yourself just by pushing through it.
I used to run long distances, and I find that it’s much like
running. Sometimes when running,
you feel as if you’ve “hit the wall,” reached a point when you’re drained and
exhausted. Usually I’d hit it at
four miles. But when you push
through it, you soon find that you reach a place where your energy seems
boundless and you get that “runner’s high.” Guess what, writers can get a “writer’s high,” too.
So if you’re a writer suffering from depression, try taking
advantage of the up times. Then try
writing through the down times. The
combination may actually be healing.
One more thing: if you have a writer or non writer friend who suffers from
depression, don’t ignore their problem.
Give them a hug once in a while, even if it’s only a figurative
hug. We’re all in this
together. Don’t leave anyone
behind.
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