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Depression…It hurts.

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So many people said don’t tell anyone. I AM NOT ASHAMED, ARE YOU? I'm sure a least 75% or more of my friends have felt this.
It hurts everyone in your life. This is not a commercial for cymbalta, but an acknowledgment that the saying is true.  Most people have experienced depression at one time or another in their life. Mine has been awful, going on for years, not that you probably would have noticed.  I wish I could be truly honest about what I’m going/went thru, but then my ex husband would use it against me. I’m sure he would be in court faster than you can say Prozac.  But go ahead and try. I dare you.
Doesn’t someone have to come out of the closet and say that they are hurting? Maybe say, “Hey, I need help?”  Of course when you are depressed, you might not reach out for that help.  Yes, we are dumb asses. That is why YOU need to make the first move sometimes.  The symptoms aren’t always  noticeable but they are there.

I’ve had quite a few people tell me this last year how mu…

To be or not to be, That is the question.

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I have a friend who died recently. Did she accidentally overdose again? Did she die of natural causes?


They say killing yourself is the easy way out, obviously they have never thought about it.  The people that have, said that suicide is the hardest thing to do. That it takes courage to do hurt yourself in that way. I can see how life could be so hard and so very overwhelming that all you want to have is peace.

A month before she died, she gave me something very precious to her. Three days before she died she came over drunk and was extremely emotional. I can't count how many times she told me she loved me and my kids that night. I had just filmed a very emotional and physical scene and could barely stay awake. I really wish I had sat with her longer.  She was so sad that we were moving and would miss us terribly. Her best friend died not six months ago and now she felt she didn't have anyone.

This woman had such a hard and terrible life. Most people would have turned a blind…